I am extracting utmost value out of my parents’ Netflix subscription - watching the Andy Warhol documentary series, which has been a riveting way to spend my first day back in Yorkshire.
Yum. Currently … enjoying drinking the Freeway “zero sugar” iced tea and snacking on confectioneries. Mostly Swizzel’s and small Galaxy caramels. It is nice to put one’s feet up whilst working, I am currently working on a commissioned work, a digital painting. This comfortability and stability is partly scary - partly invigorating. Delicious - almost.
Candy Darling, to me, is the epitome of contemporary beauty. On occasion, I look at Hayley - the most beautiful woman in the world, and ruminate upon how when she hits certain angles in photographs she appears as Candy.
Hayley enamours me as personally - I always had a very synthetic, hardened and precise notion of beauty. Not one for a candid, nor aesthetic openness - it dually baffles and dazzles me, how someone can look so good doing nothing. In fact she looks best when she engages in the most quotidian of tasks. Fiddling with her fingers, looking at something indistinguishable, and simply strolling. For some reason she looks best on the tube.
This relaxed stupor that reads as effortlessness is not effortless. Gosh, how much it takes to be beautiful - we go through so much makeup. So much:
“Oooh … try this!”
“Pin it all up!”
Prolonged fascinations with cosmetics have lead to a seminal part of our relationship being dedicated to doing ourselves up. We paint on the joie de vivre. She is simply more subtle about it than I - it is something I partly envy but I am partly proud of. Many a time - she wears my face better than I wear my face. Not so much now a model, but my extension.
Let me rephrase that - because that seems hubristic; we are extensions of one another. Pandrogyne.
She gets me all googly-eyed, which partly frustrates me because a bashful expression wears strange on a dragon. But this is a frustration I gladly feel - I love it.
Persistent thoughts: schmaltzy perfume commercials, Liberace, Dollar Store Vernacular, Krish - the best store in Kingston Upon Thames, and the colour purple. Ooh - and DDR memorabilia. Hayley’s influence.
