BOING BOING BOING !
TLDR : I feel completely burnt out, and totally tired.
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No room left for productivity. |
From photoshoots going awry, costumes being unfinished, paintings going wrong and my general lack of satisfaction with my work. The creative vigour and strength I wanted to start the year off with is looking like a bygone thought of a naïver self.
I won’t even begin to discuss the plethora of projects which I need to get a move on with, because frankly we would be stuck here for a solid 50 minutes. As in you would be torturously subjected to reading this blog, for 50 minutes.
Eek, things aren’t looking too good for “skiyodu”…
Haha, in all honesty I don’t feel too much like “skiyodu” as of right now, I feel more like Cyd Kassandra if you get me. A far cry from the ornate clown I like to feel I am.
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Not feeling like too much of a painter. |
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Trying to play the “distinguished lady of a rainbow aristocracy” but my attire is saying that I have submitted to comfort and idleness. I have indeed submitted to such things. I have actually made substantial progress in the past few weeks, in a feeble attempt to make my art WORK. Digital paintings have resumed, I am a quarter through making a new costume for a video and I have my plans set out for today as well. Which includes a good hour of dancing against a white background for some reason, only God knows why. In fact you may also know why in the forthcoming weeks. Seriously, I would love to get out a good body of work out in February.  I feel like eating shortbread for some strange reason. I’m pretty determined to do that, for some reason shortbread is a go-to snack ? Yeah … I have this unfounded belief in the fact that shortbread makes me productive, oh my gosh - what fickle, strange novelties and fantasies that I indulge in, JUST DO YOUR WORK CYD ! ( I just want to go to bed … )  Let’s not even the mention the sketchbook pages I must do for school, indeed I do go to school. I’m not at school today due to “industrial action” ( mhmm ) but this sketchbook needs to get done and honestly it’s the last thing I want to do. Eek, this is me winging isn’t it ? I deeply apologise this isn’t particularly positive nor uplifting. But you must have a few dark days before the light resumes, I suppose - as cheesy as it sounds. Interestingly, for once I am at a lack of words. I don’t have much to say whatsoever. Goodbye for now everyone, thank you always for reading the blog and I hope your blessings are in high abundance and that you have a good day, afternoon, evening or night - wherever you are !   Lots of love. |
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